I am being independent, too independent.

Hello, Neih hou, Bonjour, Namaste, Bievennue,

It has been 9 days since I have last posted, or should I say 10 or more days. I know, I am getting very reluctant to blog, I don't know why, just the feeling of abandoning the blog is coming back again.However, I don't want that to happen again.As we know, the holidays are here again, that is why I am lack of ideas for posting, because there aren't any people to be pissed off.

I can say, I am a very ' Dare to Complain' person, nobody gets in to my way when I want to complain or to know about certain things. For somebody out there, who constantly hide in the shadows of my blog and spying what I am up to, I advise you to give up, because there aren't any more shit cake sold here in Spill It Sanctuary Cafe. ROFLMAO.

Okay, back to the main topic - I am being too independent, or is it normal? 

One thing you need to know about me is that, since I was born, I was raised by an indonesian maid, till I was 7 years old, when she didn't return from Indonesia. I was at the airport waiting for her for the whole day, from the morning till the evening. On the way home, my eyes was filled with tears , knowing that I will miss her a lot. Well, to be frank, my maid is a very good friend to me. However, having a maid made me very depend on her too much. Even when I want a cup of plain water, I will ask her to take it for me. Very lazy, eh? But we really had good days together. When I was in kindergarten, she is the one who walked me back home everyday. On the way, she would ask me what I had learnt in class, she would hold my hands through that narrow wooden plank walking through that dangerous and deep drain. Yes, I do miss her a lot.

Knowing the fact that she is no longer in service, I cant sleep and eat for months. No, I am not exaggerating, I do miss her a lot. However, this is not the reason to not be normal again. 

My family is a busy family, my mom and dad works from morning till the evening and my sister has tuition classes after school. So how? What do I eat during holidays? Since then, I developed this skill many young people didn't have , which is cooking. Since I was a child, I started boiling water with wild grass, I knew I had a passion in cooking, but I just simply don't have the skill to do that.My first meal was reheating Canned Chicken Curry. It was delicious though it was canned food. Haha. I remember, I was the one who prepared food for my sister and I during the holidays. The food we ate during the holidays were only white rice with canned curry chicken.( My sister was 15 years of age that time). Wow, a 7 year old child cooking for a teenager.It was amazing.

However, having canned food was not a very healthy solution. So, I started learning cooking from the basics, the first ' Real Food' that I had learnt to cook was fried eggs. Hmm, fried eggs at 7 years old, Not Bad! Some friends of mine don't even know how to fry an egg!Although it wasn't a very fancy meal, it was my solution for hunger for the whole holiday season. Just an ordinary egg, but enough to fill my stomach, warm my heart. :D

Time past quickly, here I am now!I can now cook meals for many! From oriental to western, no problem! Well, the main thing I want to deliver is not ' How Well Jason Cooks' but to give a message that Jason is being too independent! Well the main concern is I am missing all the fun people are having. I will give you examples of me missing all the fun!

In parties, people would play games, enjoying all the joy and happiness. But me, I will feel myself being  rejected, I don't know why, people didn't say I am not welcomed, they invited me here! So, I simply step out from the crowd and watch them having fun from another corner.To be frank, I didn't feel that I was missing the fun, but I feel very safe that I was by myself. 

                                                              

Another very odd character about me is to do all the work myself. Well, you can ask my friends who had been in the same group with me, they know it and they were having a great time in my group, because they know that I will take all the tough work and do the job flawlessly.All the projects and group works(Not to say all, but mostly), from presentation to folios, I did it all by myself. Surprisingly, I can always finish them in a day or two perfectly.(Which others take weeks to finish it) . Well, I am a very weird person, I don't want to split the work to other people, because I know many don't know what I want. Even though sometimes I am not the group leader, even I don't have the authority to give orders, I insisted of doing the whole group work alone! I don't mine sharing my hard work with other people, even they didn't give a single effort!Because I want to show off my amazing work, I want to let people know that I can do it all by myself, but with brilliant results!

I know, I will miss a lot of fun and miss a lot of opportunity to make friends with my character like this. Yes, I had experienced it before, that is why I hate to go to camps, I can't make friends by myself! I am just simply too shy to talk to people! Even when people talk to me, I can't come up with random stuffs to talk about. Just how embarrassing it is to have a cold conversation?!

Yes, I know I refer myself as a perfectionist. Yes, I am a perfectionist and I want things to be perfect! But knowing that people can't be perfect,I had to sugarcoat everything on me that is not flawless.That is why you think that I am rich, I am good in studies, I am good in English. Blah. Whatever.

Well, I can't say being too independent is a bad thing, but I can't say it is a good thing either. I like being who I am now, but I know, with my character like this, I won't go far in the society. That is why I need a change!

Some words from me,

Know what are your flaws,

dare to admit it,

because that is how you get people to help you  change them.

Kakak, 

I don't blame you for making me like that,

and I do miss you.
Kakak,
Although you serve me steamed chicken and carrot porridge everyday,
I stil enjoy your home-cooked meal from day to day,
I didn't complain a single day.

Kakak, 

Where are you now? 

I hate the way you left me behind,

but I have to say,

Thanks for making me who I am today.

Kakak, I miss you.

Signing off heartwarmingly, 

Jason Lee

OMFG! Where Is The Cake ??!!!!

I know somebody out there is reading my blog without my notification, and then making it an issue. When I mean somebody, I mean a larger scale of people. BTW, what is the concern actually? I have my unsatisfactory and I write about it. What did I do wrong? I dunno, it's up to you to answer this question.

Haha, too bad, if you are here to get some more ' Shit Cake' and ' Brilliant Decisions', well, you are too late! Let me tell you, if you printed out some ' Shit Cake' to eat , let me advise you, don't eat it! It's stale, its poisonous!

Well, what are you going to do? Lets wait and see!

A Word From Jason

Hello, Neih hou, Bonjour, Namaste, Bievennue,

After issuing the post ' What Are You Doing', there has been some ' Talks' going on in my school's office. I know, I did make my post very sarcastic and there are quite some rough words and vulgarities, too. Well, to be frank,I issued that post because I am indeed unsatisfied and pissed off with the decision made by the person in-charge.

What puzzled me is, did I say anything bad about teachers? Did I say anything bad about the school? No, I did not! I used positive meaning words and made my statements in question form, I did not criticize anybody, I just asked for some answers regarding my questions.

Is it wrong to speak up about your unsatisfactory ? I doubt so. With my way of writing, I am confident that I didn't have the intention of discriminating certain party. All my posts are about what I am pissed off. Is it wrong to be unsatisfied about certain issues that contradict with your personal opinion? No!

If you did something wrong, accept it and think what you had done wrong. Okay, I do understand that somebody might not realize their mistakes when nobody tells them about it. But, when somebody does notify you about your mistakes ( IN ANYWAY) , don't be all freaked out!

Somebody I know not only doesn't acknowledge their own errors, they tend to start' TALKING'. The definition of ' TALKING' is, to gossip about the person that reminds him or her about the mistakes he or she had done. When I issued the ' What Are You Doing' post, sarcastically talking about the misjudgment made for the competitions in my school, somehow it had leaked to the eyes of certain parties. Not only they didn't take the misjudgment to discussion, they start making it an issue, gossiping it all around , making me so disgraced.Really? Was it my mistake to write about the bad results we got in the competitions? I just don't understand why the competitions I had participated in ended up in bad results despite I had performed it so well?

Well, I really don't have an idea how they know about my blog and facebook. I am sure that somebody in my profile is not being a very good friend. An advise from me, don't trust your friends too much, some of them are very dangerous. Speak up whenever you are unsatisfied, do not fear to, when you have good reasons to complain.

Have you done anything wrong? I can't judge you by just looking on the outside, not knowing what is happening in the inside. It is your choice, whether to give a sugar coated answer or a honest one.

Well, the conclusion to this post is:

"Live with dignity and glory,

Admit Mistakes and Don't blame it on others,

Gossiping will only makes youself ugly."

Signing off,

Jason Lee

What Are You Doing?

This post has been deleted due to its sensitivity to some readers. The owner of this blog apologizes to the party that has been discriminated indirectly in this post.The owner of this blog only expresses his feelings towards incidents that occur on him. No impoliteness intended. Rough words, sarcasm and vulgarities are used for humour purposes ONLY.

From the heart of the owner,

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Its a disaster, if you trash it.

Hello, Neih hou, Bonjour, Namaste, Bievennue,

I now pronounce you man and women, you may kiss your bride.Ah, what wonderful wedding scene.Actually, it is a marriage or just a wedding ceremony?

My thoughts towards marriage is that, once you do so, you are tied dead to the rest of you lives.

What you earn, goes to your family.Your freedom? Goes to your wife and your children.

Do you really think that marriage is really a wonderful thing? I doubt that. Do you really want to spend so much money on your children? Don't you want to spend it on yourself? I bet that you would want to pamper yourself after working so hard, you would want to get yourself something fancy, perhaps a fancy gadget, a fancy golf set?Right?!

Do you really want to raise children?That costs millions each, till he or she goes to University when you can let them go?For myself, my allowance is already RM 300 approx per month.It doesn't count tuition fees and other courses' fees( that costs several thousands per month).Just imagine, you want that iPhone so much, but you have to pay all your children's fees and mortgage, with just merely some money left, how are you gonna that iPhone you wanted so much?

Just think, by marrying, you have so much more responsibility, it is not like a picture editing software of something, when you make a flaw, you just undo it and you can get away with all those mistakes. Marriage to me is a death trap. You can't say, "I can't bear with it and I leave my family and be single again". It is very wrong!!! When you put your family behind, you really hurt them a lot!( I really understand it).

Thats why, I try to be single.( Perhaps for my whole life). Its fun to be a successful bachelor with lots of money and lots of women around you! XD

A word from me,

Don't hurt unnecessary people by marrying a wrong person. 

Marriage can be beautiful, but also a disaster if you trash it.

Signing off,
Jason Lee

Communique with me Via Facebook!

Hello, Neih hou, Bonjour, Namaste, Bievennue,

You can always find me on Facebook. Be sure to add me via my email: JasonVonLee@live.com

or

Add me on my messenger via: leehauyuan@hotmail.com

I am an super active facebook user, 99.99% you can find me there.

Cheerio, Signing off, Jason!

Everybody is not Perfect, but I strive to be.

Hello, Neih hou, Bonjour, Namaste, Bievennue,

Its really long since I have last posted.

I know, you might be thinking; "Duh~ It's already a month since PMR has ended, what the hell have you been doing? Hiding in the cave?"

Well, kinda like that. I have been very sad and miserable about the talks recently, about 2012. Is the world gonna end so soon? When I am 18? When I am legally approved to have sex?!( I am not a sex addict)I just like having one! :D

I just cant accept that the world is gonna face the apocalypse so soon.The first time, there are so many references and prediction that the world is going to undergo disaster.There has been sayings that the world is gonna end because of asteroid strike , green house effect , ozone layer thinning, ETC.....But these are just small cases if compared to 2012's apocalypse!

Mayan Calendar? Crystal Skull? 13th Horoscope?

Wth?! I don't mean that I really believe in these, but these are really the MAJOR 'sacred things',( I think it is....RIGHT?)

BTW, I don't have the will to write much, I am really terrified.I am really scared of dying. What are you when you die?How do you feel when you die? Will there be a heaven when you die?These unanswered questions made me so stressed out and miserable the whole time!

Yes, I like technology, but DAMAGE is the price we have to pay for it. Why not change for the better? I keep hearing like solar cars , smart houses, ECO energy....And lots of other green tech being implemented.Why not just practise it? Make it as a part of our lives, make the globe a better place to live?

"Mankind can be smart, but not smarter than nature".

I hope that mankind act wisely before it's too late, well, it is already too late!

2012, I will wait and see what you are.

Signing off,
Jason Lee

Don't Spill the Second Cup of Water

Hello, Neih hou, Bonjour, Namaste:

This is already the second opening ceremony of my blog.I have always been blogging half ways and dump the blog aside, not so patient after all, eh?

Sighs, why am I like that?Maybe I am flawed after all, I like to be a perfectionist.

Not wasting any of your precious time, let me proceed to the first story that I would like to deliver.

I believe many of you out there love sports or even force yourselves to do it for the sake of your health.Some people I know loved it so much they would rather starve to save allowance for the precious sports gear.

For the past 8 years, this thing has been bothering me so much until sometimes I would like to really scold vulgar in front of my parents.Growing up as an excellent student, my schedule is surely packed all the time.In the weekdays:Morning ,I go to school, Night, I do my homework or even have tuition classes at home.I know, some of you might think: Yea, I also have these activities la....I also can play sports wad....Okay if that is what you think, think again.Who the hell in this world would have the time to play sports if he is so damn tired after being bombasted with these activities?

One has to sleep AT LEAST 8 hours, 8 hours a day is just the minimum requirement, some people might think its enough, some might not!For me, being so hectic, surely have to have more rest than that right,right?Don't tell me to get up earlier from bed to play sports, I will KILL you!When I mean tuition, I also include classes like theory, music, and more tuition( including centre ones and private ones).Tell me,Where do I get time to play sports?

When I tell my parents about my problems like dizziness, muscle pains, join pains.....etc.They will surely relate it to the lack of sports I have been encountering.And they will say: Ah boy, you must exercise, I am not joking , you must really exercise,我讲真真的(in cantonese),if you don't listen to me, you sick your fault lorr.....

Isn't it hard to get your parents to understand you?Because we are totally different era people!In their times, where do they get tuition, music classes, yoga, computer, handphones,iPod.......

They don't even understand, If you spend most your time on your studies, the little time left for you is to carry out leisure activities like computer games and tv right?Who cares about that dumb-arse sports that make you sweat like a buffalo and end up smelling like a pig.

Another problem is that they always embarass me.(I copied from my facebook)

There are some reasons I hate sports.It is not that I don't want to do it for the sake of my health.Of course I know that sports is very vital towards my healthy lifestyle.First and foremost, I hate sports because it embarrasses me, my family is ...not that kind of people that really understands what exercise that I like.

Their mean of sports is literally exercising,swing your hands, do push ups, jogging round the park or even running ON THE SPOT!Isn't this embarrassing?They don't even understand the term/definition of sports.All I want is to have a really go...od partner to do sports with me,(of course not my family people).I want to do sports that I really am interested in such as tennis, golf, gym.

Some people out there may know that I like swimming.But this thing has been bothering me since awhile now.The only access to a swimming pool is to go to the club( which I am a member).However, when I go there, my family has to be there also right?(to drive me there).

So, when I swim, they will be like monitoring me how many laps have I been swimming, what styles have I been swimming in,even when I am still young, they even monitor how fast have I been swimming!!!!

How FREAKING embarassing is this!!@#*@)#_@#All I want is to have some really fun, easy sports, with a partner,without my family around,that will make me feel so much better@_*#_@*)#!!!!!!

So if you think that I am a nerd wearing a spec and who studies ALL THE TIME with no play, YOU ARE SO WRONG!!!!!I like sports but not the sports that I don't like,understand?!

Signing off, 

Jason